my life which is full wonders...

Can friends be in love?

2007-06-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

today i was cleaning the house as usual for my sis wedding....and when i went out with zul to suntec to search for jobs...we were like tired and didnt ate anything since morning...(except for zul).

then we head for tampines to give the invitation card to faja...i was like thinking.....had a long thinking....can friends be in love? can anyone give me an answer? and i think back, she has been so kind and listen to what i said and help me out....i just dont understand whats happening to my mind....Jannah is missing again...not online anymore...dont know what happen to her...hmmm..im just afraid that she lied to me...but i cant give all my trust as anyone can make up stories when they are overseas...hmmm.....this thinking just make me have headache....i havent had any headaches lately cause i dont usually think this kind of matter....i just wish some1 would give me advice and be there for me....i just dont know what to do anymore....my head hurts alot....hmmm

when will u come back??

2007-05-02T01:05:00.000+08:00

its may now and another 3 more months till she comes back to sg...hmmm....when will i get to be with her? or i must find another person again?? hmm...the question lies in my head...what can i do? just wait? im so lonely...i dont know what to do...haish...im just so tired...hmmm....2 jobs and school...trying to pass time....but the more im trying to make time go faster....the slower it gets..im just so tired to wait....when will i get to talk to u again? i just cant wait to hear news from u...hmmm....Jannah, if u are reading this, pls email me...hmmm....

just got back from work though....so tired...standing for few hours doing cashier....haish...i dont know if i can cope with it till the end of the year....hmmm....im so bloody angry as my psp is being servicing....damn la....haish.....hope to get a white colour though....hmmm....i just cant be so alone and boring....i want to play games...haish....

its been months that i never talk to her anymore....i hope she is doing fine...the one who loves me wholehearted....*shidah, if u are reading....i hope u will forgive me....i wish we could talk sometimes...but its just that u keep ignoring me....and i dont know what to do...hmm...i just want to friends with u again....but not like last time...a new beginning....hmm...*

i think i will end here....im so bloody tired now...dont know what to do...haish....im much more tired than before....hmmm...dont know what i must do....someone pls tell me....

what should i do?

2007-04-30T00:42:00.000+08:00

how should i say this? im working 2 jobs and im studying....its so tiring....haish....im so tired....i cant do anything....and buying a psp by tml or tuesday....hmmm.....cant wait though....thanks to the CDC&CCC scholarship...=) got $1200...HAHAHA......must buy seh...shheesshh....hmmm.....ive work at my another job for 4 days now and im so bloody tired....its not so easy to work at carrefour though...shheesshh....i dont know how long i can last there but the pay is good....shhheesshh....wonder i can save all the money to buy something else?? i must think of the future but how long? when will i get the person?? hmmm....im waiting.....and waiting....and waiting.....im just too tired...haish.....dont know what to do without some1 in my life to be right there for me....hmmm.....=(

Confused everyday

2007-04-10T11:48:00.000+08:00

As time pass by, im getting more and more confused....i just dont know what to do....when can i get my real love? what it is i must do? is all of the girl i know are just friends? can't be more then that? And when will that girl realise that i really love her?? And i think by the time i tell her...it will be too late....and i still cant forget the one who really loves me whole hearted....as i give her the same feeling without she knowing...hmm....

*i just want to be with the one i really love right now but cant*

*how long can i keep myself hiding from others??*

*will one day people know that i prefer them to be happy more than me?*

We can't control Love and Death

2007-04-10T11:47:00.000+08:00

Hmmm....guess i still have to write at my blog...hmmm....well, Sunday was the day when i went to malaysia....got to know that my grandfather past away...me and my family went back to Singapore at Lim chu kang to bury my late grandfather....then after that, we head to my uncle house to read some prayers....i was so tired though as i had only 2 hours of sleep...and good thing my cousin, Daud, got enough money that we buy cigarrettes as i forgot to bring mine...shhheeessshhh....then Sukma and Syahid and the rest came....after eating, me, Daud, Sukma and Syahid went under the block and smoke...we were smelly though when we go up and my dad knows that we went to smoke...just didnt want to say it....after that my dad wants to go home as he was having headache....when we head home...i was so tired that i could not even wake up....but after i smoke then bathe, i couldn't sleep at all...shheessshh....wth man...i was so sleepy and can't even sleep....so i play the comp till 2 and sleept....

*as time pass by, i just couldn't choose which one to believe...*

Can i have a 2nd chance to everything??

2007-04-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

how should i start this? i dont know what i did wrong to people and they dont want to tell me....hmmm....i just dont know what to do....all i can do is say sorry but is it enough? im so tired of people not telling me my mistake and hates me....hmmm.....

today is the craziest day i had....went out with Syahid, Sharifah, FiFi, Aza and Faja....lol....went to marina square though...hmmm....had alot of fun though...thought Faja and Sharifah how to play pool...lol....like wth? they dont know how to play pool? which is the easiest to play....lol....hmmm....then we went to this place "BREEKS" to get some dessert but got to know we bought abit more food even though we've eaten Burger King....WTH!!!! SPEND SO MUCH MONEY IN 1 DAY??!!!!....lol....but it was fun though....took alot of pics at Breeks....cool....but i was like tired though...as i slept at 6am and woke up at 11am...shhessshh...and had to go to work after going out with them....hmmm....and now im at home feeling so blank....i just dont know what to do....am i too tired to think? is everything just going to be fine if im gone?? i dont know what to do...just blank in my brain...hmmm....

i think that this is all i have....i dont know what to write anymore...i will dye my hair now and wait till 5am...get ready to go to iyer hitam at Johore....haish.....gonna be tired...hmm....

*does she have something to tell me that she called me twice in 2 nights?*

*Shidah, can i get a 2nd chance to be ur friend?i know it wont be like last time as i can never let u be in love with me anymore...*

*Fatin, can i get a 2nd chance? What is my mistake?*

*will people believe me more with my actions instead of rumours?*

this are the pics from just now:

what did i do wrong??

2007-04-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

hmm...i dont have anything much to write for today as im so angry now...haish....everything is falling apart from me...hmmm.....i dont know what to write...im so stressed up...haish.....

*im waiting for that person to be back at singapore*

*i just want to be friends with shidah*

*i just want happiness and i dont know where i can get it*

*when will i get a real girlfriend that really loves me whole hearted?*

*Jannah, if u are looking, pls, tell me the whole truth, and i will tell mine*

Looking for new job anyone??

2007-04-05T01:57:00.000+08:00

HEY YO!!!!.......what the heck with today man? is it looking for job day? hahaha....well....the day start with me meeting that Dzul and follow him to TP just to send a stupid form...haish....wth la....and then we went to Bedok Interchange to meet Nisha at the Mrt....sheeessshh....we were late and Nisha was almost angry uh...hahaha....it wasnt my fault though...haish.....whats with people nowadays?hahaha....okok.... then we head for Plaza Singapura to search for jobs there and we took alot of vacancies over there.....sshhheeeesssshh....i dont know how many we took, and its always the four people, me, dzul, adha and nisha...what the heck...so many vacancies? hahaha...the people we scared and this dzul and adha was so crazy to act childish at carrefoure and scold some people for no reason and the employer doesnt want to employ them for such a childish act....lol....then after that, adha and dzul try to go for starbucks...lol....and ask me for to go and ask them for the application....wth...must i go?hahaha...then after that i had to go to work at delifrance though....shhheesssshh....i was so tired to go to work....and i work with Syahid(my cousin), Shidah(for u, read the * below) and Kak Nora(my manager).....and adha and dzul stay till 11pm....cool...hahah.....then we head to coffee bean to get free drinks...it was dzul idea though....want free things only.....hahaha...sort.....then me and Syahid run away from Adha and Dzul as they were chasing us for their drinks...lol.....hmmm.....k la...i will stop here.....hehehe

*i still cant forget u and the memories that we had......*

*i still cant choose my path for the future....hmmmm*

Can it get any worst??

2007-04-04T11:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm.....i wonder how others feel when the one the loves lie to them or loves some other person...hmmm....i just had enough of this things.....Why must girl play with guys feelings?? is it because its fun? and playing with one isnt enough....must keep continueing to other people....haish.....hmm....

ok people.....lets go...hahahah....siao....hmmm....yesterday i was at home the whole day, well, not the whole day, went to my friend house...=)...hahaha....and then when i reach home, i was alone...my sis went out...shhheeesshhh....like wth la...im being left out as always...hmmm....i waited for her to be online from 4pm till 1am....haish.....well.....i dont think she knows....and i dont think i know whats going on over there at her place....haish.....and got to know that some1 i like, is in love with some1 else....haish.....everytime i feel in love, it turns bad....and the heartbroken moments are always mine...well, what to do....im people's toy that they can play with....always have been and will always be.....not even half of my friends think me as who i am....well, im tired now...dont know what to type anymore....haish....

*can my life get any worst without anyone knowing??*

can u tell me the truth if u really love me?

is there any girl that truly love me?

Sorry for not blogging

2007-04-01T14:42:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE....IM SO SO SO SORRY....

i've not been blogging cause i was tired and i'm so confused with my life....its been so hard for me this days....i just need time to think of what choice to make so that i wont get a horrible life....so sorry

*i just need time jannah....i dont think im ready for any relationship for now*

a whole new life for me...hehe

2007-03-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

ohkay people...now i start my blogging...heheh.....yesterday i didnt blog as i was talking on the phone and was too tired...hehe

hmm...today was boring at school as usual...but it started at 12 though when i thought it started at 12.30....lol....me and faris was going to school and met up with my other 2 friends...Zham and Hazmi...hehe...okok, that was the boring part of time....hahaa....after school which ended at 4pm, me and faris and some of my friends took 21 to go back home...but before that me and faris was dancing at the road..hehe...it was so funny and alot of people look at us both....hahahaa.....who cares man...we just dance, not doing something else??hahaha...hope no one thinks we both are crazy....but it was funny though we dance....with the "temptation" song...hahaha....hmmm....after that we went inside the bus and looked at the video....me and faris we laughing at our own moves...hahah...sort....i alighted at eunos as im the only one who stays chai chee as the rest are at tampines and bedok resevoir....shesssh....when i reach home it was 4.40pm and had to get ready to go to work...haish....work work work...hmm...i wonder when i will quit Delifrance and go to other places? hmmm...i wonder.......work today was tiring....as me and Dzul only had to do closing, well, good thing that nyza help to do some before she went off.....i dont get my idiotic manager.....how can she give me sucky schedule when i'm schooling and give others the perfect one? hmm....after finish closing, me, kak nora, fahmi, kak nora's housband and dzul talk for a while till 11.30...cause i can't take it anymore as i'm to tired...when i reach home, i was too bloody tired to even walk but i can still type....lol....ok la....this is it....hehee....time to end todays blog...hahaha

*nowadays i think i'm liking Fatin even more...i dont know why....hmmm.i guess i cant stop love though....i hope nothing happens like between me and some1...which really hurts me and her...haish....

i hope someday that we can either move ahead step on...hehe....i just wish that...hahha*

is this what new love means?

2007-03-20T00:25:00.000+08:00

Hey People,

hahhahaha....okok....now start with the blog...hmm...i guess today the whole day is my happy day as i started to msg Fatin, the girl from kfc at sg post under my work place...hehehe...=), she is nice to talk to....wow.....didnt know that i could be happy just by talking to her....i feel like she is special.....BUT!!!, i cant straight fall for her as i must think carefully....but hey, who cares...no one can stop love!!! HAHAHAHA.....okok, i didnt went to school today...in stead i went to my work place to give my manager, Kak Nora, the key of the shop...heheh....with faris aka fifi....haha...the class gayboy....yeah!! hahah...we sat at Mac for few hours and got to know that there's alot of ite macpherson people go there...hahah.....as usual...me and him smoke at the stairs....and see the girls but disturb how ugly they are.....hahaha...haish....people now a days...no manners....HAHAHAA.....okok, we went to my house and faris sleep at my sofa....WTH!!!! sleeping pig....it was 5pm of the day and i had to go to work....sheessh....didnt want to go but niza was alone and i cant let her be by herself as she is my junior....well, we both were the only staff for closing...it was damn tiring....haish.....but we finish early though, and we rest outside the store for a while....then took 28.....and i was singing and dancing, suddenly niza said, "eh sap, take video ah....i promise i wont show people...." hahaha....then i was like....ok sure....it was inside the bus when i dance....boy, the driver was crazy...i think the driver doesnt know how to drive or he want to go back early....damn....it was shaky...but it was nice that i dance....hahaha....sort....btw, niza, dont show it to people....dont give people ur hp...u promise that....hehehe....ok, gtg now...im too tired...come back home and got scolding from my parents for not going to school....SHHEESSSH!!!! hahaha...okok...nitez people....=)

*btw, Fatin, it was nice knowing u.....i hope we can be friends forever....hehehe, hope to meet u soon.....tc....dont be a naughty gal.....*

i'm so so so confused

2007-03-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

I dont know which one to follow.....or to trust.....im just to confused....first say that she is married and then the other says she is in hospital.....im so confused....why is my life so complicating? am i in the wrong to fall in love? why is it that everytime i fall in love, it always fail for me....i just dont get it.....if i cant fall in love....then this will be the last love for me.....i had it.....the most i will die being single....i just cant take it anymore.....btw, thanks to the people who care for me....i really appreciate it.....but i just give up now....hmm.....today has been a boring day for me...just dont know why....i was boring the whole day....

*i just want to say that i give up on everything, i will let others get what they want...i prefer for them to be happy instead of me....*

this is the end of my blogging for today...i dont know what to type anymore.

LIES

2007-03-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

I dont know why nowadays people like to lie to me? is it for who i am? if that it is....then tell me whats my mistake...haish.....im totally heart broken now....i dont know what to say....haish....

why must u go???

2007-03-17T13:27:00.000+08:00

hey there people...i havent been blogging for two days now....cause i've been so stress thinking of the person.....haish....i will really miss her....and now i dont know what happen to her....she suddenly dissapear....im so sad that she didnt even call me to let me know....hmm....

ok....here i go...For the past 2 days i was too tired to go to school and work....i dont know why but i was just tired....i dont think i can stay longer at that Delifrance....I'm going to change my job soon.....hope that i will really get a job which is not FNB....shhhheeeesshh....I'm so bloody tired of FNB....those irritating customers....haish....hmm.....but i had experience....so no prob la....as long as i get the experience of working....i have no prob to go to other works....for interview and all....=).....

*i just cant stop thinking of her la....it's been 2 days that i never talk to her and i hope i will get to talk to her soon.....i just cant understand why is my life is unfortunate....haish...*

its so wonderful today..:)

2007-03-15T02:05:00.000+08:00

Its was 8 am in the morning and i cant sleep anymore so i bathe and play the comp...i had nothing to do and was so bored till 11am....i ate my breakfast which my cousin did for me...with my lil sis...lol....
ok, i skip school today to go for an interview at Adidas but didnt get it....damn la....i really want to work at adidas....damn those people la....shessh....hahahaha....okok, thats enough....and so im off to work at Delifrance....hahaha....and was tired as Dzul didnt came to work so i had to work with Niza....The two of us working...I dont mind as Niza is a good worker....hahaha....even if i'm her senior....i prefer working with her....it's like she have work so long....haish....good to have workers like her and myself....=)
Well, when i finish work, i was so tired....rush back home just to get online....hehehe....as i was missing her already....and was hoping that she waited for me....and she did....WOW!!! i really love her.....HAHAHA.....after talking to her for a long time....then she was sleepy, so i let her sleep....hehehe....
Today was the day that i found new love and i cant forget it.....she make my life a wonderful place to move on....hahaha...but i'm going to miss her though....as she is living for australia in next 2 weeks....haish....i will miss u....hope u will be back a.s.a.p....i really cant wait to see u....=)

*I WILL WAIT FOR 3 YRS IF I HAVE TO BUT PLEASE, DONT DITCH ME....I WILL BE TOTALY HEARTBROKEN IF U DO...I LOVE U SO MUCH*

wow, going to escape with my friends

2007-03-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

It was 6.50 in the morning and i woke up as i had to go to school...i was suppose to reach at 8am but instead i reach 8.10...good thing that not good teacher of mine let me go...hahaha
i was tired when i reach class as it was so boring as the teacher was talking non stop....especially that Mr.Teng....i dont even know how to spell his name..hahaha....sort....hmmm...what was so fun that it was after school when i went to escape with my friends....as usual...wash our eyes....hahahaha....only guys know...XP
i had so much fun especially when i ride the go kart...hahaha....hit alot of people....i wanted to take the fastest kart which was 22....but i got 12 instead...but it was the 2nd fastest, my friend, Shafiq told me to take it...and so i did, but i cant stand the most is that the operator is so cute and pretty....
hahaha....hmm.....
*i met this girl, she is so nice...she helps me whenever i need help...she is always there for me...."HANNAJ" i love u so much...thanks for being a great friend..:)